Today a rose was left on my car. The details are not important to this blog but it made me start to think about pursuing.
I love the pursuit, probably more than the relationship itself. Yes that is a bad thing and yes God is changing me. But lets be honest that is the best part. The butterflies and the surprises are endless and all the text messages just make you fall for him. But as good and fun as all that is you know when its not right. Not like its bad its just not what is supposed to be happening in your life. And as sweet and cute as it is, its just not right. But "you will know when it is right." Well that's what they say... right?
I know that feeling, that feeling when you are falling for The One and it is totally perfect. That happened for me during the summer of 2006. He wasn't one of the students or even a leader on the trip with us to camp but that summer I met my match. Turns out He was born in a barn, a totally Daddy's Boy, and ate with criminals and prostitutes... totally my type. He didn't have a ton of friends, just 12 that didn't really fit in anywhere else. He traveled around doing crazy stuff like feeding a crap load of people with just a sack lunch and just one touch of his clothes could stop the worst period symptoms. And He was bad. He went into churches and overturned tables and yelled at political leaders. Talk about my kind of guy. He was everything I ever wanted, faithful to a fault, loving, and would literally die for me.
That summer I met The One. Jesus wooed me from the moment I felt His prescence in worship. I could feel Him closer than skin and I knew it was a forever thing, He wasn't going anywhere. He won me over when we were outside surrounded by mountains and screaming "HE IS IT" and I actually believed it. I knew He was The One when He called me to ministry. I wasn't just saved, I was called to the purpose of God and with Him there would never be a dull moment.
Yep, that is The One and just like I knew it was right with Him, I will know it is right with him. I am a firm believer that when God made me, He made him. That there is a cheese to my macaroni out there. Not that the cheese can't stand alone. I mean come on, what is better then string cheese or cheese squares? But something magical happens when you have the perfectly cooked macaroni mixed with the goodness of cheese. And just like you know when the mac and cheese is ready to eat, you will know when you are looking in the face of the one just for you.
But for now I have The One and my heart could burst with love for Him. And yes I have big dreams that he definitely needs to be in the picture for but I want the right one in the perfect time. And with my man, all things are possible.
2 Responses:
okay, this is the best blog ever. publish it in a book somewhere, or write it on a big important wall. you are so cute. i love it.
I have tears in my eyes-my darling, you've done it again with that beautiful, delicate heart of yours. So tender and yet so strong.
(half way through your blog, i decided i wanted to feature this post in my weekly surf because I love your words.)
We were JUST talking about "the one" this week and how you know when you "know". But I didn't KNOW when i met dustin. The thing about God and relationships is that it's all so organic. there is never really any rhyme or reason to how he moves sometimes, he is a mystery.
anyway. I love you girl. and I'm so proud of you.
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